hahahhaha

my favorite things (:

these are a few of my favorite things (:

-my BEAUTIFUL niece Alayna... who i love dearly.
-my HANDSOME nephews Connor, Braydon, and Gianni... such gentlemen.. (:
-soy hot chocolate with hazelnut (sbucks makes it the best)
-soy mate lattes
-disneyland. <3
-sunshine
-the smell of rain
-stargazing
-lilies, peonies, hydrangeas, red roses, and orchids
-the colors red & turquoise
-my family and their incredibly strange sense of humor
-peanut butter m&m's,
-dove chocolate (best you can get at QFC)
-godiva chocolate- especially hazelnut truffles (my ultimate preference)
-baking, cookies, cakes, cobblers..etc.
-creating new recipes
-cheesecake factory (jamaican black peppered shrimp= DELICIOUS)
-sleeping in my own bed
-buying new clothes
-anthropologie & urban outfitters.
-blue c sushi
-swiss mushroom philly cheese steak (: sooo good.
-thai toms
-listening
-being optomistic
-happy uplifting music
-singing incredibly loud when i am all by myself hah basically the only time i am not nervous (:
-exercising
-day-dreaming
-taking care of my friends/ the children i nanny for & niece and nephews/ my family
-my puppies.
-learning/exploring new things/talents. (like my wonderful rose painting hahah)
-watching romantic movies and living vicariously through them (:
-reading the Book of Mormon (:
-taking pictures
-fruits and veggies.
-moving on and learning from past mistakes!
-heels & shoes in general
-helping people who need it !
-dressing up



so far all i can think of!!! if i think of anymore i will add them (:

summer blissss

hahah cheesy titles, my favorite. this summer has been perfect. SOO much sunshine, and so many visits with people that i love and have missed during the long school year. i need to start an online independent study course soon (aka now so i can finish before fall qtr starts when i will have 20 credits [kill me]) so i will be on track to graduate next spring but i am dreading it sooo much! it has felt so good to be completely free of responsibility & expenses for a month and a half (i start working again this week). working is a bonus, because i could really use the extra cash, with my bank account dwindling and especially with rent creeping on me slowly (due sept. 1st). regardless of alll of these upcoming deadlines, i cannot complain. i have not been this happy since long before i can remember, and i would not trade this for anything!

you know when you feel like there is a huge gaping void that you can't seem to fill? for once everything is completely perfect, and there is nothing that i could really ask for to make anything better. i never thought that i would be where i am at now a year ago, and i am SO grateful i have such amazing family & friends. i seriously love them all so much.

my plans for tomorrow (last day of freedom):
- wake up early
- go running
- clean room
- put clothes in laundry
- lake with tress (prime sun hours)
- seeing all of my favorite people!!!!


love & kisses

i love the rain (:

its so hard to move, even when most of your stuff is being stored in the garage! haha i shouldn't complain, ever. i do think that i am killing my back though, im probably just lifting things wrong but i definitely need to go to the chiropractor. needless to say that is what i have been doing this past week ishh, and now i am at home in issaquah. most of my clothes/shoes are still in seattle bc i need my truck to go pick them up and someone decided it would be awesome to let out the air in my truck tire! sooo rude! hahaha its all good though thats what AAA is for.

okay now i am going to go clean my house. not as easy as cleaning the townhouse as it is about 10 times the size. but my mother is out of town, and my dad is at work till 6 so SOMEONE has to do it (its really not that messy- it never gets messy)! again, no complaints.

at least its friday (:

boys boys boys.

this year has been a little lame when it comes to the dating scene. don't get me wrong i have had my interests, but they have all been disappointments. most recently a guy was trying to 'get to know me', and it turns out he has a girlfriend!! talk about shady!! haha i think he forgot who he was dealing with.. he definitely lost his chances for sure!

i just wish that there were men on this planet who acted like my father. he is the most caring, patient, hilarious, loyal, honest, loving, respectful, kindest man on this planet. i have never met anyone like him. girls constantly are looking for someone who is like their father (just like guys look for girls like their moms), and i would just like to say THANK YOU Dad for setting my expectations waaay toooo high, and essentially destroying my love life (i am kidding.. kind of).

i mean i do have high hopes for a certain polynesian boy to return from his mission ;-) but i am keeping that on the DL... nothing is set in stone, obviously.

anyway, boys, stop being douche bags.. its not cute, and i really don't like you enough to put up with it, and lets be honest- i could do WAY better.

love & kisses

nicibaby (:

unity

the other day i had the most inspirational lecture! a photo journalism professional came in and talked about how he always wanted to make a difference, and since taking photographs was something he happened to be extraordinarily talented at that was how he planned to change society. His photographs (I can't really describe them seems how he is trying to stay under the radar) were incredibly moving. They helped me realize some of the major problems that our society is facing today.

They also helped me realize that I am neither republican nor democrat, and i think it would be in the best interest of our country if we all became more united. I think it is incredibly important to formulate opinions on separate issues, but for me there are political issues from both sides that i can agree with, and the decisions i make while voting are supported on who i think will do the job correctly, instead of what party they are from.

just a thought.

lets get together yea yea yea


love & kisses

nicibaby

memorriaall dayy!!

can i just say that i have the most AMAZING friends that anyone in this world could ever ask for? i feel like genuine friends are people who make you a better person and want the best for you. my friends are constantly by my side looking out for me through everything. i love them all very very much and am soo grateful to be blessed with such amazing people in my life.

i am really excited for this weekend. its gonna be fairly low-key but excellent. ray ray and i are going back to issaquah to watch my sister and cousin for the weekend while my parents are out of town for their anniversary. we're hitting up alll the mexican restaurants because there is absolutely no good mexican food in the u-district (not legit mexican food at least). and we are hopefully having a craft night/movie night/ tennis sesh with caylie too cuz lets be real, everyone needs a craft night every once in a while and i haven't gone to see a movie in like 6 months soo its necessary. did i mention it is going to be absolutely gorgeous this weekend? what more could i ask for?


love & kisses

nicibaby

happy mom's day!

i know there are so many things that i need to be stressing about right now, but for some reason everything seems sooo incredibly peaceful it is hard to focus on anything! i'm not trying to be philosophical or anything, but i was reflecting on life and the future as i was driving home from my house (in issaquah) today, and i have soo many things to be grateful for. i have soo many amaaazing friends, i could not even tell you how incredible they are, i truly do love all of them and would do basically anything for them. not to mention the fact that i have the most spectacular family, they have been there for me every step of the way, they truly know me better than i know myself. i have nothing, nothing at all to complain about. i love seattle, i love UW, i love my house, i love my roommates, i absolutely love life and its' boundless opportunities.


and last but certainly not least,

i LOVE my mother!! she is the most amazing woman on the face of this planet. i do not know how she does all of the things she does but she does it with style! she is such a great example to me, i could not ask for a better mother.


love & kisses!

-nicibaby

ariel chin

ariel ariel you need to study
ariel ariel you are so funny
you eat mcdonalds late at night
and wake up to a frightful sight
we should go get blue c now
and then you can continue on the prowl
we'll all move to hawaii someday
and get those polynesian boys...anyway


dedicated to rel. <3

volcanoes melt you down

spring quarter is soooo refreshing. between the actual sunlight and the nearness of summer, everything just feels good. it might also have to do with the fact that i've been exercising and eating well too.. who knows. hahha

we just had a bonfire tonight and i want to have one every night now. i'm really glad i transferred to UW. as much as i LOVE the people at USU, and obv my roommate/best friend Caylie, Seattle is just my home (at least for now), i am just myself here and i am soo incredibly happy! no regrets.

anyway i am tired and have to work on an assignment (rachel and i set goals tonight- to actually do our homework)


love & kissess

-nicibaby.

AT TWENTY (:

WRITE "AT (your age)..." IN THE TITLE. BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH YOUR ANSWERS.

(1) I'm taking this survey because:
i always copy tiffer's surveys (:

(2) I sometimes get mistaken for:
my little sister's twin, so rude. i am 5 years older than her.

(3) My favorite part of my body is my:
butt. its bangin. ;-)

(4) The feature I get the most compliments on is my:
my legs.

(5) When I want to feel sexy, I put on:
a dress and some heeels (:

(6) I have a massive:
crush on a very secret someone (actually thats a lie.. most ppl know who i am talking about)

(7) My ritual to help calm my nerves is:
i have anxiety attacks on a regular basis, i think the best way to calm my nerves is taking a vacation! works every time.

(8) The thing that instantly makes me feel better is:
sunshine!

(9) I have a phobia for:
spiders

(10) I am most insecure about:
trusting people, men in general

(11) The best relationship advice I ever got was:
the most important relationship you will have in life is the relationship you have with yourself (famous words from none other than miss DVF herself)

(12) The best fashion advice I ever got was:
it's not what you wear, it's how you wear it.

(13) Dating deal breakers for me are when a guy has:
baggage, you need to get over whoever or whatever you are carrying around before i would ever consider dating you. also, if you are not a gentleman you can pretty much forget about it.

(14) Advice I can give a guy who likes me but won't ask me out is:
i know i will get myself in trouble for saying this, but just ask me, and don't be offended if i say no (:

(15) Advice I can give a guy who's flirting with me and not receiving much on my end:
i just want to be friends (:

(16) Three things I find sexy in a guy are when he:
has a sense of humor, treats me with respect, and knows how to take care of himself to an extent

(17) Three things I wish I could be more:
i like myself the way i am!

(18) My friends always give me a hard time about:
not calling them back or answering their texts! sorrrry

(19) Four things my friends universally love about me is:
my loyalty? and my advice i think.

(20) In 5 years I see myself as:
married with the love of my life. <3

(21) Right now I see myself as:
happy, independent & successful.

HAPPY EASTER <3

arizona was fantastic, definitely what i needed after winter quarter (even though i had a vacation a week before). i honestly think that i should be prescribed vacations, because they help my anxiety more than anything! or maybe i should just live somewhere sunny. haha

any who- i was being the usual nicia today, and contemplating life on a large scale. and i realized that i need to stop harboring up emotions (one of the causes of my anxiety). i have so much negative feelings toward people who have treated me horribly in my life, or people who treated my friends horribly, and i NEED to learn to forgive them. i was thinking about this today, and i think what was holding me back is my pride, and the fact that i could not bear for them to think that what they did was okay. what came to me was that i just have to forgive them in my heart, i do NOT need to be friends with them or see them by any means, especially because i have vowed to never speak to them ever again. i just don't want to be an angry or hateful person, and not being that way does not mean that i am weak, if anything it means i am stronger! its just so hard to be angry because that is just not who i am and it is EXHAUSTING trying to be that way.

i was also thinking about where i was a year ago compared to now. it is crazy how many things have changed, i would have never thought that i would be where i am today if you would have told me a year ago. i am really grateful it has changed, i was not happy and hadn't been for so long that i literally forgot how to be happy... if that makes any sense. its great to finally realize what is important in life, and how i ought to be treated. i don't even think i can convey how low i was at this point last year, but many of my friends can attest.

in light of Easter, i should say that i am INCREDIBLY grateful for the Atonement, it is crazy thinking of everything that Christ did for us all, even though He was a perfect being. if He can do something as great as that, why is it that i have such a hard time with forgiveness? sort of humbling to think about. we saw the Easter Pageant (on the life of Jesus Christ and His resurrection) when we were in AZ at the Mesa Temple (they do a huge production throughout the entire month of April) and it was amazing.

ps. is it possible to be completely head over heels for someone even though you don't know them very welll?? ahhhh

love & kisssessss <3 gnight

right on time!

i NEEDED a vacation. even after taking one 2 weeks ago hahahaha. call me a baby, but trust me if you hear what i have on my plate you would TOTALLY understand.

okay so lately my life has been a living hell. i have actually been very happy now that i am thinking about it, but i have been SOO stressed out. a couple of days ago i had two panic attacks within a couple hours of each other and i was freaking out (the first was in the car on the freeway, the next was during lecture). My Mother says i need to talk myself through it so that i learn to not have them anymore.. she says exercise will help too (i am just starting up again- bathing suit season hahahah). i am HOPING this helps, i think the best solution would be to get everything situated and organized. i have become a complete neat freak. whenever i clean i cannot just straighten, i have to DEEP clean everything!! which is very inconvenient considering i have little time to do so.

in a matter to publicly humiliate myself, which is ultimately impossible because i find that it takes a LOT to truly humiliate me.. i am going to write down all of the tasks i need to complete on this post- so that everyone can hold me to them (: i am in AZ right now so most of this will be completed pool side...

1. finish online course.
2. finish readings for all 3 classes.
3. figure out how i am going to save up to pay back parents for first 2 months of rent.
4. finish assignments due in each class.
5. write essay for the COM department.
6. resolve problem w/ USU registrar (i was accidently enrolled in a course @ USU this semester- KILL ME)
7. RELAX/ ENJOY MYSELF (this will be hard considering i need to resolve the above 6 tasks prior to doing this)


i GUESS you could call this a vacation.. i mean our condo is brand new and gorgeous! so no complaints <3


love & kisses

such is life

i am so grateful for everything that i have. even for all of the mistakes i have made or the bad things that have happened to me. i feel like everything has made me more wise, less naive. i was just thinking about a few of my friends and it just breaks my heart to see such awful things happen to such amazing people. as much as i know that they can come out of those situations so much stronger, i just hate to see them struggle.

truth be told: nice guys AND nice girls finish last.. but i am sure the long wait will be well worth it.

best statement ever: (reinforced by my father in a book he gave me last year): "not every guy is like the one who hurt you" i want ALL of my friends to remember that!! just because some idiot broke your heart does not mean that the rest are spoiled, and even though it will be harder to give your heart away again, don't be afraid, just be more careful!! without heartbreaks, how could we ever recognize true love (:


LOVE YOU ALLLLL

love & kisses <3

SPRING BREAK!

okay soo this month has been PSYCHOTIC. which can basically explain why my last post was well, forever ago to say the least. anyway i have been sooo busy with job/school/friends/family i can't seem to balance anything! but i did have a wonderful spring break... even though i had to do bits and pieces of my online class (NEVER TAKING ONE EVER AGAIN) while i was there.
soo kelsey invited me to go to cali with her and a few of her guy friends! i was planning on just working over break but a vacation was sounding better and better.. so i agreed of course and last friday we drove the 14 hours to a cute little town called windsor (her fam owns a timeshare over there). i hardly ever go to northern california, so i was pretty stoked. when i do go to nor-cal, its to visit some fam on my dad's side, we had a few weddings in monterey (near san jose), and my dad used to always go to the santa cruz boardwalk when he was a kid so we went there a few times too! on our first day of adventuring we went to santa cruz to go to the boardwalk, the weather was excellent, although slightly windy. I ended up having to buy a sweatshirt but its cute so i don't mind. the rides were a ton of fun (not as good as d-land, but lets be honest- what is as good as d-land?!?!) we ended up going on the log ride about 5 times, and switched formations each time (front-back), no matter WHERE i sat, i always ended up getting waaay more soaked than anyone. hahahha after the boardwalk we went and got ice cream at this cute AMAZINGLY GOOD ice cream parlor called mariannes. i am in love, and would probably be about 50 pounds heavier if i lived near there.

time for a new paragraph! okay, so the next day we went to the jelly-bean factory! woo woo! it was really cute, and smelled really good, and made me REALLY hungry... in short, i loved it, even if i am not a huge jelly bean fan! the next day was my favorritee, we went to san francisco, and now i reaaallly wanna live there. i went and saw my cousin and his wifey and their kids while i was there and it was so much fun!! we explored downtown and me and kels saw some amazingly attractive men. <3 <3 such a good time! the next couple days were beach days/ exploring downtown windsor days. it was a really fun time. i am very happy that i went and that kelsey invited me! thanks kels<3

any whoo- i am getting close to finishing the online class, and hope/NEED to be done before i leave for AZ this friday (apparently we bought a condo there a year ago... ??). its gonna be tough vacationing the second week of school, but i need to go some place warm and relax for a bit. i have had waay too much on my plate lately.

as for guys- lets be real. do i REALLY have time for guys? i actually feel kind of bad/anti-social.. i mean of course i hang out with my guy friends all the time.. but whenever a guy asks me out on a date i am immediately turned off/ creeped out.. i think its because i already know what i want.. haha and he wont be home for well, a while. besides i am WAY more picky now. i have to weed out the bad ones and it seems that there are SOO many of them! my dad once told me (in a book he gave me last year) that not all boys are like the ones that hurt me.. i guess i should take that advice and give some of them a try.. we'll see. hahah

i will post some pictures soon <3

love & kisses <3

busy busy weekend/week

this past week has been fairly psychotic. hahah well i have been going from home to seattle and back almost everyday because my mother is in Maryland watching the kiddies. I told her while she was gone I would come home and help out. I don't think I have been a ton of help though hahah. Not to mention finals are just around the corner! I have a research paper due, a final project due, and little nonsense papers on top of that. not to mention my communication assignments. basically i just looked over everything i have to have done by next week... and i am thinking that this weekend will be spent mostly indoors. so sad, but so true.

last weekend however, was eventful. it was ju's last weekend in town :-( so friday, while there were a ton of people at my house, i snuck out to go to his going away party at josh's place. that was fun, i ended up being there extremely late.. which ultimately resulted in the deterioration of my health. i woke up saturday, with absolutely NO voice, my body aching and my head throbbing. saturday was difficult too, ju had his more formal going away party at his house in issaquah, and then i went to tiffer's 21 bash in bellevue. i couldn't talk to anyone, because the vocal cords were not really working at the time.. sunday, although i felt like crap, i went to church because i knew i'd be sad if i didn't! i lasted the entire three hours, and then went to my grandma's afterwards for dinner. i was fine all throughout then too.. but as soon as i got home i died. i had the worst headache and a terrible fever.. it was awful.. so i let my boss know that i wouldn't be at work the next day and i went to sleep with a cold press on my head. monday i woke up still feeling yucky.. but then i ate an entire box of samoa girl scout cookies and i was miraculously all better! hahahhahaha.. actually i don't think it was the samoas... but true story!!


anyway i should really focus. i hate being a procrastinator. one day i will change, i promise.

LOVE AND KISSES <3

allergies.

well spring definitely decided to come early this year, because as of like friday i started getting my allergies again! i was hoping for another good 2 months before this !! hahah it won't be too bad once i pick up the meds though.

until then, i am at the library getting nothing done, i have been here for 5 and a half hours. caylie and i stayed up till about 3 this morning then woke up at 8 (for church at 9). i am exhausted.

haha no complaints though right??

things could be SOOOOO much worse.

and i will be in issaquah for most of the week (taking care of my dadddy and my sissterr) while my mother is out of town!!


i love you ALL regardless of my not-so-perky mood right now.


love & kisses! <3

i love life.

ahh i just finished sooo much hw!! i still have a couple assignments to do before the weekend starts but i feel freeee!!

updates::

i had the most wonderful weekend!!! emily and missy came to visit and stayed at my place. we basically spent the entire weekend visiting people and kickking it with some beeezys. haha ky, missy, em and i went shopping on friday and hit up nordstrom and aritzia.. i hadn't been shopping in a very long time, but i was tame.. haha (: then we went and got pho. it was quite an experience.. haha i was a little more skilled with the chopsticks than missy and ky.. and em just had 2 egg rolls lol. friday night we hung out with david and some other boys. saturday aka VDAY we visited isssy, went and saw my parentals (my mother got us valentines hahahha) and went to starbucks with annie and ky, then took our little outing to red robin! afterwards we went home and got ready for the night then went out and hung out with our boys!! sunday was way more low key, we went to see my daddy speak in church, then visited my g-parents/ the sanelli fam, then went home made a kick-butt dinner (i cooked my brother's ammaaazing mushroom alfredo), then the boys came over and emy made us cookies!! yummm

soo that was clearly not the best description i could have given, but i am sure that you got the point. it was an AMAZING weekend. and i miss my girls more and more now!! ahhh.

and we were talking about weddings.. (random i know).. and i realized that i am going to have like 15 bridesmaids. ahahha basically, i need to stop accumulating close girl friends because by the time i am 25 i am going to have 25 bridesmaids. BLEH

anddd i haven't written a song in quite some time soo i think i am breaking the dry spell tonight!


anyway. i love life. and i am excited for this weekend <3

love & kisses.

(sorry this post makes me look extremely illiterate)

sooo many things to be thankful for!

basically. i have been thinking a lot lately. and i truly have it made. i mean obviously there are days (although i cannot remember the last one) when i am totally in a rut, but when i see all this trouble around the world i am forced to stop and realize that there are people who have it soo much worse. its actually really sad to think about how bad some people really have it. i wish i wasn't a poor college student so that i could actually do something to help these people out! at this point, its nearly impossible, but i am hoping in the future (with a lot of help) we can make the world a better place (: hahah i sound like i am competing in a pageant but i really really mean it!!!

i just feel so dumb every time i complain, when i really have nothing to complain about! its always the petty things you know? classes, weather, dumb boys etc. but really- everything happens for a reason, and even if things seem bad at the time of their occurrence, they usually are for the better in the end!

famous words of john lennon <3 --

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one


if i could i would give everyone a little piece of my happiness! i hate how much sadness there is in the world.


love & kisses <3

hey baby hey baby heyy

so today i basically took nothing out of lecture. i was trying soo hard to stay awake the entire time that i couldn't even take notes!! hahha oh man. and i have a ton of h-dub to do tomorrow and i am not excited about it. hopefully i can get most of it done while colin is napping!

i am having such a hard time budgeting myself. there are so many things that i "need" right now so i keep thinking i can get them (not that i have been getting them, because i haven't). and i haven't purchased clothes (besides my over priced yoga pants) in SOO long i am having some major withdrawals. i was looking at some of my favorite stores the other day and i saw the cutest shoes, and the cutest dresses. ughh so hard !! i need to perfect my sewing skills so that the money isn't the issue! i miss the good old days when i didn't have to pay for clothes.. oh high school..

emily & missy are coming this weekend!!! i am BEYOND excited. i haven't seen emily since september and i have not seen missy since may! i am seriously stoked to see them it will be such an amazing weekend!

i am pretty much loving life right now! even though it is beeeyoondd crazy. i don't think i have been this happy since, well, high school.. hahahahah its fantastic!

last but not leeeast, i finally finished breaking dawn!! took me forever i know (hard to read non-stop with school and work) but it was SOO good, by far my favorite of the 4 books.


<3 night night

love & kisses

i love sundays. (:

i really do love sundays. especially because now my body has semi-adjusted to waking up early (from waking up at 7 every morning, 8:15 feels like a breeze). i love going to church, i love the peaceful feeling you get there, it is such a nice beginning to a long week. i also love coming home, turning on a movie with kelsey & taking a really long nap haha. today our nap lasted for about 2 and a half hours, which is long for me! and now i feel extremely well rested (i got 8 hours of sleep each night this weekend wooo hooo!!). i also feel like taking these iron pills everyday has really improved my anemia symptoms! i can sleep now, and i am still semi-tired during the day but i think its improving!! caylie's mom gave me these valerian root pills that help you sleep at night (they are just an herbal supplement) and they work like a dream! thanks margie! (:

tonight (in about a half hour) i am going to go practice with the band for the v-day party on wednesday! i am singing if i ain't got you (alicia keys), at last (etta james), killing me softly (lauryn hill), and bleeding love (leona lewis). they are all pretty difficult to sing sooo we will see how this goes! but i am super excited because i don't get to sing as often as i like. i'm not that roommate that sings constantly (really loud), as much as i want to be sometimes. i get really annoyed when people do that soo i figure i won't make other people suffer. i also never sing when someone asks me to (on the spot), i am way too shy for that kind of thing. i won't even do it for my best friends hahaha. the one thing i will always do is sing in the car. turn that baby up and i will start singing my heart out!

OH ALSO- i invested in a pair of lululemon yoga pants yesterday, did not realize they were so expensive. bleh. but i needed a pair of comfy pants to wear to work and thought it would be nice to have pants to wear to the gym (i hate wearing shorts there). sooo they filled my description fairly well! i had to feel justified though so i looked around and no where else had the same quality that they did and their's are actually long enough for my legs (sometimes i truly hate having long legs) so i am happy (:


and please keep my grandfather in your prayers! my grandpa on my dad's side collapsed over the weekend after he had attended his sister's funeral :-( we are all SOOO worried about him. i fasted for him today and i hope that he gets better because i was freaking out all friday when i got my father's message!

love yooou all.

love & kisses <3

work/play! (:

okay so i am working right now but i really don't feel like i am working. it's weird actually enjoying my job! i enjoyed hollister simply because it was not really work, i basically hung out with my friends while i cleaned up the store and helped customers! and Nordstrom was fun too because it was competitive, and even though i wasn't getting commission i still had that drive to sell the most product. i learned so much about handbags from them hahaha. and coming from someone who doesn't spend a ton of money on accessories, i have never been more tempted to buy a thousand dollar purse than i was then. now of course i am not tempted to buy anything because i simply have no money to spend (very unfortunate). but that will soon change (: .

i hated working at the bank. not because of the people, not really even because of the job. the pay was excellent, i am always shocked to see anything about 500 on a paycheck (minimum wage does that to you). but i was so stressed out from working so much, and getting behind in my classes, that my stomach ulcers started coming back and that made things extremely difficult. i chose to leave for health reasons and i think that was a really good decision on my part! i don't think a bank job is my forte. i do well in retail and apparently in nanny positions.

right now Colin is asleep (he sleeps for 2 1/2 hours ishhh..) soo i pretty much am doing homework and ate my lunch and blah blah blah. but when he is awake we play in his play room! he is adorable. i know this is EXTREMELY far in my future (hopefully around age 25.. so five years lol) but i cannot wait to have kids!!! i am so excited! i want like 3 or 4 (i am used to having a big family) soo i have to get started young! however, it is mandatory that the father be extremely attractive. i don't want any fugliness mixing with my genes (although i am sure i will think my kids are cute no matter what). i used to only want blue eyes but now i could honestly care less! brown eyes are gorgeous too (:

hahha i have become really picky sooo hopefully one day i will actually find this dream guy! (would be nice if he happened to show up after my 25th birthday)


love & kissesss <3

oh and also.. how did i go from jobs to kids to dream guy? i apologize for all of these ramblings.

anemia :-/

okay its late i know.. but i just realized that i truly am anemic... i mean i always have been, but only mildly... and lately i haven't really been eating any meat (besides occasionally chicken) just because its easier to cook other things and i am so busy all the time (and the fact that meat is expensive!!). i just looked at the symptoms for anemia and turns out i am having the more serious symptoms (insomnia, fatigue, loss of energy, dizziness, headache, rapid heart rate, etc.)

hahah sooo yea, when i talked to my mother earlier today she was saying i should get checked, and i already knew that i was anemic bc when i gave blood a few months back i was mildly anemic, not anemic enough to not give blood though of course, and at the time i did not have any of these symptoms. anyway, turns out my mother is anemic too and she just started getting treated for it sooo i will be making a quick trip to the doc's office tomorrow (aka my second home <3 ).

ehh, wish me luck as i try to sleep... again.

love & kisses!! <3

25 random things about muaah!!

1. i try not to take my computer to class because i cannot focus when it is around ( aka right nowww).. caylie can attest to this because we both did awful in anthro last year

2. i believe in fairy tales.. i am going to have an epic love story of this i am sure.

3. disneyland is the happiest place on earth, and i go there AT LEAST once a year (have since day 1).

4. creme brule is my favorite dessert <3 chef kelsey is excellent and makes it for me often (she even has a little fire blower thing).

5. i LOVE my niece and nephew (i talk about them 24/7) and i LOVE the fact that they call me everyday just to have cute little conversations!! and i love kids just in general (as i am sure all of you know).

6. i put my whole heart into relationships (friends, family, bf, etc). i guess it just never made sense to me to only go half-way.

7. i have always wanted to make a difference and help people in every way i can.

8. i love change, and although it can be really hard in the end it is almost always worth it.

9. i am terrrible at staying mad at people. sometimes i have to remind myself why i am mad at them (repetitively) because i so often forget.

10. i hate being used. especially when i realize it when its already too late.

11. i love my family & my friends! more than anything elsee in the world. i don't know where i would be without them. they have all been there for me when i have needed it the most.

12. i am not super sensitive, i can definitely laugh at myself and do it often.

13. my favorite colors are turquoise and red!

14. i am really shy when i first meet people (depending on the situation)

15. i love to sing and wish i were better at the guitar (one day i will be)

16. i absolutely love asian food!!! (pho, pad thai, fried rice, etc) <3

17. sunshine is like a drug to me. it lifts my mood no matter what the situation.

18. i always try to look on the bright side of every situation.

19. i hate seeing people i love go down-hill if you know what i mean.

20. i wish i could make absolutely everyone happy, and i do what i can to try.

21. i love clothes, buying them, wearing them, helping people find something to wear.. etc. i can't wait till my sister gets her clothing line started so i can get some chic designer wear for freeee <3

22. i have always wanted to start a charity and i am finally going to <3

23. i vacation more often than i should. i lovee hot places or anyywhere in europe <3

24. i love life!! i love the ups and downs even though they suck sometimes, everything happens for a reason!!

25. i am boy crazy. always have been always will be. (:

first day at work!!

today i had my first day at work (: it was soo much fun! basically what i do is play with the little 14 month old boy, his name is Colin. he is so precious and has the biggest brown eyes and the most adorable dimples. when Colin goes down for a nap i hold the newborn (2 week old) whose name is Zach. he is soo cute and soo small, he is a beautiful baby. the couple i am nanny-ing for are really laid-back and nice. i really wish i could be of more help though! whenever i have down time (Colin is asleep, Zach is either asleep or getting fed) i wish she would let me clean up or do something helpful! they are paying me really well and i want to be able to make this as easy for the mother as possible!

anyway, this is by far the most perfect job that i could have stumbled upon. i couldn't be more grateful for it.

i am gonna try to call it an early night again even though i have a day off tomorrow!

love & kisses <3

my niece skis better than me... and she is 3 1/2

i am still polishing my skills in the skiing department, and i fear that my little 3 and a half year old niece may pass me up before i know it! 

She just started skiing this winter and was already going up the chair-lifts and everything before she was done! i don't know about you but i get really jealous when i see those little toddlers passing me down the slopes with better technique and just overall skill. hahaha i was clearly never meant to ski but i figure i will get better if i keep at it. 

i am writing down a list of my goals for the year and just things i want to accomplish in my life today. i might have to put them on here so i will have better motivation to actually finish them. 

anddd of course. it is superbowl sunday. in church everyone was all about the cardinals winning.. i almost felt like i should stick up for the steelers, but apparently the cardinals are the underdog so more power to them. but honestly, as much as i honestly do love football.. i haven't kept up at alll so it really holds no special meaning.. there are farr too many other things to worry about all the time.

last thing.. my first day of work is tomorrow!!! i am a mix between nervous and excited.. nervous because i am hoping that my body will allow me to call it an early night (so i can wake up early of course) and excited because i get to play with a really cute 1 year old and hold a darling newborn all day!! i am so lucky this job fell into my lap! i seriously have so many things to be grateful for it is ridiculous.

here is a video of my ADORABLE niece and nephew!! i love them so so much!! <3

EMPLOYED!!

ohhh yess!!! the rumors are true. i now have a job and it is so perfect for me! i will be nannying for 2 kids but mainly just one of them. the other is a newborn (11 days old) so he will mostly be with the mother! they are both sooo soo darling. i can't even believe how lucky i am!! and it was an absolutely gorgeous day today to top it all off. (: 

my weekend:

this thursday the girls and i went out and had an excellent evening! it was really quite hilarious. but nothing too out of the ordinary (:

friday i went and saw new in town with tiffany and my sister and her friend. we grabbed dinner and then rushed to the theatre arriving just in time (as usual). it was a really cute movie, i guess the reviews were not so good.. but i enjoyed it! i am not a tough critic but i definitely thought it was comical! i have no desire to see it in theaters again but i wouldn't be opposed to renting it when it comes out. Well after that tiffer and i were both pretty tired so we headed home. 

today was the highlight of the weekend!! simply because i have been looking for a job for such a long time and the one i got is the perfect job all around! i am seriously so excited. it will be a really fun job for me i am sure. tonight i am going over to a friends' little get together which should be excellent! i might call it an early night though because oddly enough i am very tired and want to take full advantage of a good nights sleep!

i love that i just rambled through this entire post. a little uninteresting i am sure!! i hope you all had just as good weekends as meee (: 

LOVE & KISSESS <3

INSOMNIA

okay, i cannot blame tonight on insomnia, because i chose to go out with the girls. but on a typical night such as this, i would still be up at this time. i know i don't have mono because i would have a super soar throat and although i did have a soar throat a couple weeks ago, i got rid of it fast and i definitely don't have any swollen glands and besides that i only sleep a lot because i can't sleep at night, soo yea. i am just a victim to insomnia. tomorrow however, regardless of the lack of sleep i will be getting, i am forcing myself to wake up at a semi-normal hour so that i can get back into that habit before i get my next job (which *crossing my fingers* could be this weekend). 

anyway, i am actually sleepy right now.. so i am giving in and going to bed!!

goodnight, love & kisssess <3

one FINAL thing!!

i almost forgot to say happy birthday to one of my very best friends Emily Wasden!!! I LOVE YOU EM!!! i miss you sooo much and cannot wait to see you in a couple weeks!! 

one more thing!

i got the cutest message from my niece and nephew this morning!! it was something like this:

Alayna: Hi Nicia, I am calling to talk to you, call me back some time, love you

Connor: Hi, love you, buh-bye

I love them so much! i cannot wait to see them & hopefully take them to disneyland this summer!! (crossing my fingers)

love you babies <3

its a beautiful morning.. afternoon (:

hello all, 

it was supposed to snow today and BIG SURPRISE, it didn't. i love the weather men, always keeping us on the edge of our seats. class last night was extremely interesting as usual! in my ethnicity class we watched another section of the WETBACK movie. i feel like i am honestly one of the only people who cries in those films! it is soo hard for me to watch. i just wish that their countries were not in such a bad crisis and there was some way that i could help all of them. out of 1000 immigrants attempting to get to the united states, only 300 survive :-( . it just makes me realize how extremely blessed i am regardless of anything bad that seems to go on in my life. i reeaally want to help those people though. i will find a way someday. 

in my environmentalism class we discussed the happenings of the ladakh film we had watched the prior class period. it was a film that showed the effects of industrialization on societies. in the case of our highly industrialized society, then change has not been so obvious or noticeable, it has happened over a long period of time. for the people of Ladakh, the change has happened over a matter of 20 years. they went from being completely self-sufficient, happy, not having any form of currency, to where we are today. Now they feel as if they need to catch up to all of our 'highly developed' societies. it is so interesting watching how successful and happy their life was before to seeing it now. it is truly humbling. it makes me wonder why money is so important? i mean clearly we need enough to survive, but i have always had this goal to be incredibly rich and make a ton of money for myself. now i realize, that money is paper, it doesn't bring you happiness. material possessions are exactly as they are defined, material. they aren't nearly as important as the relationships you build throughout your life, and the things you can do for other people. i think that if i were to make a lot of money now i would want to give it away to the people who need it the most. i know that is pretty steep to say, because as human beings we are all inherently greedy, and it is a REALLY hard emotion to overcome. i just hope that if i ever do acquire the money that i once longed for, i use it in a good way. of course i have been raised with a love of nice things, so it might be a little difficult. and i do have a slight obsession with clothes, but the idea is that i will be able to budget everything and have enough to sustain myself and my family, and some to donate to people who need it the most. it is fairly easy to say that i would give my money away when i have none. hahaha

my classmates and i were talking about whether we would choose the Ladakh lifestyle or the lifestyle that we currently live in. its sad to me because no matter how inviting the Ladakh lifestyle appears, i don't think i would ever be able to take away all the commodities i have gotten so comfortable with throughout my life. i think that is fairly standard though.

well, i should probably go start my reading for my classes tomorrow! and go apply to more jobs of course. this is honestly the HARDEST time to find a job. no one is hiring, everyone is firing (haha that rhymes). I have personally never had this hard of a time. employers keep calling me telling me how awesome my resume is but that they have no positions available, SOO frustrating! well, i owe my parents 2 months of rent as of now and i am going to continue to put myself into more debt if i don't figure something out soon! if only WaMu hadn't brought back my stomach problems i would not be here right now.

love & kisses <3

there's a first time for everything... and a second..

here i am again... yes i did start another blog back in the day but failed to keep up with it and now i have no idea how to log into it soo i'm starting over! 

here's a little update on life as of now-

i am no longer at utah state, although if you are reading this i am sure you know that. i now attend the University of Washington, and i absolutely love it! i graduate next spring, which is so so soon, i am so unprepared. i am graduating in communications but i have NO idea what i am going to do with it!

this quarter i am taking the most interesting classes. one comm course that is required for my major, then an ethnicity course and an environmentalism course. The latter 2 have made me want to start a charity club even more! some of you already know that i have wanted to do that for a really long time, but now i have actually started the plans! they are all very rough-draft as of now, but hopefully they will be coming together shortly.

as for what i plan to do with my life, i have had plenty of thoughts. i have considered opening a bakery (something i have always wanted to do), composing music to my songs and recording an album, going back to school for interior design (although in my opinion i don't need the professional schooling as i am already excellent), or putting an emphasis on event planning for my major and planning weddings. however, recently i have kind of just been wanting to take a few years off and go help people in third-world countries (my parents would LOVE that...). i guess i have another year to figure all of this out.. no rush right? haha

anyway, back to UW and the move back to seattle:

i love it here. there is something about seattle that i will always love, maybe its just the fact that it feels like home, it is home. i just feel at ease here. anyway, the first couple months of school were a little bit tough, just going through a messy break up, starting over in a new place, basically starting over in life haha you know the usual. i met some amazing girls and guys, and of course already had my friends from high school so i kind of skipped over the whole meeting people stage. i also started focusing a lot more on me for the first time in about 4 years? needless to say, it has been a long road but i can truly say that i have never been happier than i am right now. it is such a good feeling when you realize you made the right decision, especially when it was the most excruciating decision to make. through everything i have gone through over the past little bit i have really seen who my true friends are. i can't say i am surprised with the results, hahah, my best friends have always and will always be there. 

anyway, sorry the grammar and everything in this post sucks it is late and i am sooo tired!! considering i had about 4 hours of sleep last night (not okay.) 

love you all, 

i will give you more updates laterr <3