at 22...

I took this survey when I was 20 years old... lets see how different my answers are now!

(1) I'm taking this survey because:
i always copy tiffer's surveys (:

-to see how much I've changed.. if at all (:

(2) I sometimes get mistaken for:
my little sister's twin, so rude. i am 5 years older than her.

- a Kardashian.... just kidding. that only happened once. but it was the happiest moment of my life.

(3) My favorite part of my body is my:
butt. its bangin. ;-)

-Still my butt. its a bubble, and has trouble fitting into things, especially jeans. dunky.

(4) The feature I get the most compliments on is my:
my legs.

-That would be my butt. it gets too much attention. Sometimes embarrassing attention.

(5) When I want to feel sexy, I put on:
a dress and some heeels (:

- I mean this in the most modest way possible, but I can feel sexy in anything, it really doesn't matter what you are wearing, its how you feel about yourself.

(6) I have a massive:
crush on a very secret someone (actually thats a lie.. most ppl know who i am talking about)

-i had a massive crush on jake locker, but he has a serious girlfriend so i will have to settle for Lebron James or Brady Quinn, I would say Reggie Bush but he was a total a-hole to Kim and I really can't put up with cheaters. haha this is of course insinuating that I have a chance with any of these guys.. and I totally do, right?

(7) My ritual to help calm my nerves is:
i have anxiety attacks on a regular basis, i think the best way to calm my nerves is taking a vacation! works every time.

- Now, I take these pills with lithium in them and drink loads of chamomile. I also can't eat when I am nervous, otherwise I will throw it up, gross.

(8) The thing that instantly makes me feel better is:
sunshine!

- music. i absolutely love music and it can make me happy no matter what the situation. sunshine works too I suppose! (:

(9) I have a phobia for:
spiders

-That remains the same.

(10) I am most insecure about:
trusting people, men in general

-I think now I could change that to falling for people. I hate being vulnerable and have the tendency to push away if I feel myself getting to that point. Thats definitely a change, not necessarily a good one.

(11) The best relationship advice I ever got was:
the most important relationship you will have in life is the relationship you have with yourself (famous words from none other than miss DVF herself)

- That remains the same because it is sooo true! You can't fully love someone else until you love yourself, and how is someone supposed to love you if you hate yourself? I know that is incredibly confusing wordage but I'm going to assume you know what I mean...

(12) The best fashion advice I ever got was:
it's not what you wear, it's how you wear it.

- this is true, although I don't think you need to listen to fashion advice. Its an industry designed to make money on things that are not worth their price. I don't even mean that because I am bitter.. I still buy new clothes all the time and LOVE dressing in nice things, but are they necessary? Not at all. If I was told that I would be forced to give that up in order to be happy I would do it in a heartbeat.

(13) Dating deal breakers for me are when a guy has:
baggage, you need to get over whoever or whatever you are carrying around before i would ever consider dating you. also, if you are not a gentleman you can pretty much forget about it.

-Baggage is still one. Respect is huge too.

(14) Advice I can give a guy who likes me but won't ask me out is:
i know i will get myself in trouble for saying this, but just ask me, and don't be offended if i say no (:

- I give almost everyone a first chance, unless I KNOW that I won't like them, in which case, there are plenty of other girls out there so it shouldn't be a problem!

(15) Advice I can give a guy who's flirting with me and not receiving much on my end:
i just want to be friends (:

- i have the problem of flirting with a lot of people, its my personality. If you know me you won't take it the wrong way, but when you don't its often confusing. My apologies if I lead you on. Again, plenty of fish in the sea.

(16) Three things I find sexy in a guy are when he:
has a sense of humor, treats me with respect, and knows how to take care of himself to an extent

- Sense of humor, respect, and isn't jealous.

(17) Three things I wish I could be more:
i like myself the way i am!

-i still like myself. it would be nice to be less awkward though (:

(18) My friends always give me a hard time about:
not calling them back or answering their texts! sorrrry

- being really sassy for a 'good girl'

(19) Four things my friends universally love about me is:
my loyalty? and my advice i think.

- the way i talk in a british accent, the way i do my octopus dance, my sass, my ability to make baked goods.

(20) In 5 years I see myself as:
married with the love of my life. <3

-married? with the job of my dreams!

(21) Right now I see myself as:
happy, independent & successful.

- all still true (:

Midterm Blog Post.

Here's to my birthday week, starting shortly. This year its 22, and all i can muster up is indifference. Why do I have such a terrible outlook on birthdays? I'm not entirely sure. I am usually an upbeat and positive person, in fact, everyone would say I am one of the most optimistic of that sort. Its just that the attention-getting involved on my birthday is too much to handle. It isn't even just the attention, its the anticipation of the attention. It gets my stomach tied in knots and I can't help but have the WORST stomach pain ever. I literally can't control it, my body is completely in sync with my emotions. This probably has a lot to do with the fact that i don't particularly like to show people any negative emotions, which is probably because I grew up with two diva sisters, one younger and one older, and SOMEONE had to balance it out. All this being said I can draw the conclusion that my problem stems from having an inner diva that is trying to free itself from my insides. I mean that in the literal sense because it feels like someone/something is brutally attacking me.

Well on top of all this, my friends have decided to throw a birthday party for me and my dear friend Brooklyn this friday. I know that will be fun, and I get to sing with Henry too so even though I'll be super anxious it will be a good chance to release all of that terrible diva energy. Then there's Saturday, so I'll watch the Husky game but thats not till later in the day, and thats Brook's real birthday so I'm sure we'll do something spectacular (: Then there is Sunday. That is the day I will be celebrating my birthday with my family, which will probably consist of far too much italian food and a huge cake... and presents, my parents are definitely present givers (which explains where I got it from). Finally, my real birthday, the 25th.. Monday, I will be doing absolutely nothing and going to class later in the evening! Maybe I'll go to trivia after to really celebrate my birthday right ;-).

After this weekend, I will have one less thing to stress about. However, instead of being silly about the whole thing I'm actually going to enjoy myself. I refuse not to. (:


Venting complete. Now its time for bed, goodnight.


<3 yours truly.

The Start of Fall...

Although i absolutely adore summer, fall still manages to pull through as my favorite season. There are many reasons for this decision. For instance, in the fall comes football... which means dawg saturday... (: and then there is fall fashion! I love the sweaters and scarves and boots... not the heavy winter kind but the 50 degrees and sunny kind. hahah and then there is starbucks, because it is not nearly as fun to get a hot drink on a hot day! and then there is my birthday (meh) which really isn't my favorite because it involves a heavy dosage of unnecessary attention and usually some disappointment. but then there is halloween!!! and i LOVE halloween, i am already thinking of what i should be this year !! and then there is thanksgiving. yum.

needless to say it is AMAZING. and i love it. can't believe my senior year in college starts in a week and a half.


love

<3 yours truly

ps. my english professors would die if they saw the structure of this blog post.

Summer love (:

Where to start....

2 of my very best friends are tying the knot this summer, they both found their perfect match and I could not be happier for them! So I guess that sort of sums up the title of this blog post, because unfortunately I have not had much luck in the love department! Not to say I have not tried.... Or kind of tried.... Do first dates count? I have plenty of those, but for some reason I can't help but be completely uninterested in all of the guys here! They are always either selfish, egotistical, immature, or simply unable to let loose and have a good time, I haven't lost all hope yet though (:

Aside from that form of love, I can absolutely say that I am in love with summer! Nothing beats the summers in Seattle (: , whether it's hiking, floating the river, BBQ, having a bonfire, going on the lake or just being able to strip down to shorts and a tshirt, nothing is better.

Also, the Mariners beat the Yankees last night in the 8th inning with a grand slam (: final score: 4 to 1. Couldn't be happier!


<3 yours truly.

hawaii!!

i just got back from hawaii a couple of days ago and i want to go back SOO bad. I was there for 2 weeks- first week staying at one of my VERY best friend Emily's house on the North Shore of Oahu, SOOO amazing!! The week after I was in Kauai at my family's condo with the rest of my family. It was exactly what i needed, i hung out with em, we hiked, i learned how to surf, we went beach hopping, i got to see my sister/bro-in-law and my niece and nephews, and i went snorkeling with a ton of exotic fish, saw some turtles and some seals. It was pretty perfect. i am planning on moving to the North Shore after graduation though so that will be fantastic (: It was really weird trying to get back into the swing of things but i have managed so far. My teachers were both really nice about me missing the first week of the quarter which was a HUGE relief. They are also both hilarious, which makes going to school in the evening WAY easier. Besides that the kids that I nanny for have been absolutely adorable this week! I missed them all so much!! It was sooo great seeing my friends too!! I have the most AMAZING people in my life! I am so spoiled!!!


On a side note: i am fairly positive i gave myself a minor concussion today. i feel very concussed. i slammed my head on a door handle when i was picking up a 2-year-old. It was just about as pleasant as it sounds. (: hahaha oh well, life goes on! c'est la vie?


<3 yours truly.