spring quarter is soooo refreshing. between the actual sunlight and the nearness of summer, everything just feels good. it might also have to do with the fact that i've been exercising and eating well too.. who knows. hahha
we just had a bonfire tonight and i want to have one every night now. i'm really glad i transferred to UW. as much as i LOVE the people at USU, and obv my roommate/best friend Caylie, Seattle is just my home (at least for now), i am just myself here and i am soo incredibly happy! no regrets.
anyway i am tired and have to work on an assignment (rachel and i set goals tonight- to actually do our homework)
love & kissess
-nicibaby.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
AT TWENTY (:
WRITE "AT (your age)..." IN THE TITLE. BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH YOUR ANSWERS.
(1) I'm taking this survey because:
i always copy tiffer's surveys (:
(2) I sometimes get mistaken for:
my little sister's twin, so rude. i am 5 years older than her.
(3) My favorite part of my body is my:
butt. its bangin. ;-)
(4) The feature I get the most compliments on is my:
my legs.
(5) When I want to feel sexy, I put on:
a dress and some heeels (:
(6) I have a massive:
crush on a very secret someone (actually thats a lie.. most ppl know who i am talking about)
(7) My ritual to help calm my nerves is:
i have anxiety attacks on a regular basis, i think the best way to calm my nerves is taking a vacation! works every time.
(8) The thing that instantly makes me feel better is:
sunshine!
(9) I have a phobia for:
spiders
(10) I am most insecure about:
trusting people, men in general
(11) The best relationship advice I ever got was:
the most important relationship you will have in life is the relationship you have with yourself (famous words from none other than miss DVF herself)
(12) The best fashion advice I ever got was:
it's not what you wear, it's how you wear it.
(13) Dating deal breakers for me are when a guy has:
baggage, you need to get over whoever or whatever you are carrying around before i would ever consider dating you. also, if you are not a gentleman you can pretty much forget about it.
(14) Advice I can give a guy who likes me but won't ask me out is:
i know i will get myself in trouble for saying this, but just ask me, and don't be offended if i say no (:
(15) Advice I can give a guy who's flirting with me and not receiving much on my end:
i just want to be friends (:
(16) Three things I find sexy in a guy are when he:
has a sense of humor, treats me with respect, and knows how to take care of himself to an extent
(17) Three things I wish I could be more:
i like myself the way i am!
(18) My friends always give me a hard time about:
not calling them back or answering their texts! sorrrry
(19) Four things my friends universally love about me is:
my loyalty? and my advice i think.
(20) In 5 years I see myself as:
married with the love of my life. <3
(21) Right now I see myself as:
happy, independent & successful.
(1) I'm taking this survey because:
i always copy tiffer's surveys (:
(2) I sometimes get mistaken for:
my little sister's twin, so rude. i am 5 years older than her.
(3) My favorite part of my body is my:
butt. its bangin. ;-)
(4) The feature I get the most compliments on is my:
my legs.
(5) When I want to feel sexy, I put on:
a dress and some heeels (:
(6) I have a massive:
crush on a very secret someone (actually thats a lie.. most ppl know who i am talking about)
(7) My ritual to help calm my nerves is:
i have anxiety attacks on a regular basis, i think the best way to calm my nerves is taking a vacation! works every time.
(8) The thing that instantly makes me feel better is:
sunshine!
(9) I have a phobia for:
spiders
(10) I am most insecure about:
trusting people, men in general
(11) The best relationship advice I ever got was:
the most important relationship you will have in life is the relationship you have with yourself (famous words from none other than miss DVF herself)
(12) The best fashion advice I ever got was:
it's not what you wear, it's how you wear it.
(13) Dating deal breakers for me are when a guy has:
baggage, you need to get over whoever or whatever you are carrying around before i would ever consider dating you. also, if you are not a gentleman you can pretty much forget about it.
(14) Advice I can give a guy who likes me but won't ask me out is:
i know i will get myself in trouble for saying this, but just ask me, and don't be offended if i say no (:
(15) Advice I can give a guy who's flirting with me and not receiving much on my end:
i just want to be friends (:
(16) Three things I find sexy in a guy are when he:
has a sense of humor, treats me with respect, and knows how to take care of himself to an extent
(17) Three things I wish I could be more:
i like myself the way i am!
(18) My friends always give me a hard time about:
not calling them back or answering their texts! sorrrry
(19) Four things my friends universally love about me is:
my loyalty? and my advice i think.
(20) In 5 years I see myself as:
married with the love of my life. <3
(21) Right now I see myself as:
happy, independent & successful.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
HAPPY EASTER <3
arizona was fantastic, definitely what i needed after winter quarter (even though i had a vacation a week before). i honestly think that i should be prescribed vacations, because they help my anxiety more than anything! or maybe i should just live somewhere sunny. haha
any who- i was being the usual nicia today, and contemplating life on a large scale. and i realized that i need to stop harboring up emotions (one of the causes of my anxiety). i have so much negative feelings toward people who have treated me horribly in my life, or people who treated my friends horribly, and i NEED to learn to forgive them. i was thinking about this today, and i think what was holding me back is my pride, and the fact that i could not bear for them to think that what they did was okay. what came to me was that i just have to forgive them in my heart, i do NOT need to be friends with them or see them by any means, especially because i have vowed to never speak to them ever again. i just don't want to be an angry or hateful person, and not being that way does not mean that i am weak, if anything it means i am stronger! its just so hard to be angry because that is just not who i am and it is EXHAUSTING trying to be that way.
i was also thinking about where i was a year ago compared to now. it is crazy how many things have changed, i would have never thought that i would be where i am today if you would have told me a year ago. i am really grateful it has changed, i was not happy and hadn't been for so long that i literally forgot how to be happy... if that makes any sense. its great to finally realize what is important in life, and how i ought to be treated. i don't even think i can convey how low i was at this point last year, but many of my friends can attest.
in light of Easter, i should say that i am INCREDIBLY grateful for the Atonement, it is crazy thinking of everything that Christ did for us all, even though He was a perfect being. if He can do something as great as that, why is it that i have such a hard time with forgiveness? sort of humbling to think about. we saw the Easter Pageant (on the life of Jesus Christ and His resurrection) when we were in AZ at the Mesa Temple (they do a huge production throughout the entire month of April) and it was amazing.
ps. is it possible to be completely head over heels for someone even though you don't know them very welll?? ahhhh
love & kisssessss <3 gnight
any who- i was being the usual nicia today, and contemplating life on a large scale. and i realized that i need to stop harboring up emotions (one of the causes of my anxiety). i have so much negative feelings toward people who have treated me horribly in my life, or people who treated my friends horribly, and i NEED to learn to forgive them. i was thinking about this today, and i think what was holding me back is my pride, and the fact that i could not bear for them to think that what they did was okay. what came to me was that i just have to forgive them in my heart, i do NOT need to be friends with them or see them by any means, especially because i have vowed to never speak to them ever again. i just don't want to be an angry or hateful person, and not being that way does not mean that i am weak, if anything it means i am stronger! its just so hard to be angry because that is just not who i am and it is EXHAUSTING trying to be that way.
i was also thinking about where i was a year ago compared to now. it is crazy how many things have changed, i would have never thought that i would be where i am today if you would have told me a year ago. i am really grateful it has changed, i was not happy and hadn't been for so long that i literally forgot how to be happy... if that makes any sense. its great to finally realize what is important in life, and how i ought to be treated. i don't even think i can convey how low i was at this point last year, but many of my friends can attest.
in light of Easter, i should say that i am INCREDIBLY grateful for the Atonement, it is crazy thinking of everything that Christ did for us all, even though He was a perfect being. if He can do something as great as that, why is it that i have such a hard time with forgiveness? sort of humbling to think about. we saw the Easter Pageant (on the life of Jesus Christ and His resurrection) when we were in AZ at the Mesa Temple (they do a huge production throughout the entire month of April) and it was amazing.
ps. is it possible to be completely head over heels for someone even though you don't know them very welll?? ahhhh
love & kisssessss <3 gnight
Monday, April 6, 2009
right on time!
i NEEDED a vacation. even after taking one 2 weeks ago hahahaha. call me a baby, but trust me if you hear what i have on my plate you would TOTALLY understand.
okay so lately my life has been a living hell. i have actually been very happy now that i am thinking about it, but i have been SOO stressed out. a couple of days ago i had two panic attacks within a couple hours of each other and i was freaking out (the first was in the car on the freeway, the next was during lecture). My Mother says i need to talk myself through it so that i learn to not have them anymore.. she says exercise will help too (i am just starting up again- bathing suit season hahahah). i am HOPING this helps, i think the best solution would be to get everything situated and organized. i have become a complete neat freak. whenever i clean i cannot just straighten, i have to DEEP clean everything!! which is very inconvenient considering i have little time to do so.
in a matter to publicly humiliate myself, which is ultimately impossible because i find that it takes a LOT to truly humiliate me.. i am going to write down all of the tasks i need to complete on this post- so that everyone can hold me to them (: i am in AZ right now so most of this will be completed pool side...
1. finish online course.
2. finish readings for all 3 classes.
3. figure out how i am going to save up to pay back parents for first 2 months of rent.
4. finish assignments due in each class.
5. write essay for the COM department.
6. resolve problem w/ USU registrar (i was accidently enrolled in a course @ USU this semester- KILL ME)
7. RELAX/ ENJOY MYSELF (this will be hard considering i need to resolve the above 6 tasks prior to doing this)
i GUESS you could call this a vacation.. i mean our condo is brand new and gorgeous! so no complaints <3
love & kisses
okay so lately my life has been a living hell. i have actually been very happy now that i am thinking about it, but i have been SOO stressed out. a couple of days ago i had two panic attacks within a couple hours of each other and i was freaking out (the first was in the car on the freeway, the next was during lecture). My Mother says i need to talk myself through it so that i learn to not have them anymore.. she says exercise will help too (i am just starting up again- bathing suit season hahahah). i am HOPING this helps, i think the best solution would be to get everything situated and organized. i have become a complete neat freak. whenever i clean i cannot just straighten, i have to DEEP clean everything!! which is very inconvenient considering i have little time to do so.
in a matter to publicly humiliate myself, which is ultimately impossible because i find that it takes a LOT to truly humiliate me.. i am going to write down all of the tasks i need to complete on this post- so that everyone can hold me to them (: i am in AZ right now so most of this will be completed pool side...
1. finish online course.
2. finish readings for all 3 classes.
3. figure out how i am going to save up to pay back parents for first 2 months of rent.
4. finish assignments due in each class.
5. write essay for the COM department.
6. resolve problem w/ USU registrar (i was accidently enrolled in a course @ USU this semester- KILL ME)
7. RELAX/ ENJOY MYSELF (this will be hard considering i need to resolve the above 6 tasks prior to doing this)
i GUESS you could call this a vacation.. i mean our condo is brand new and gorgeous! so no complaints <3
love & kisses
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