allergies.

well spring definitely decided to come early this year, because as of like friday i started getting my allergies again! i was hoping for another good 2 months before this !! hahah it won't be too bad once i pick up the meds though.

until then, i am at the library getting nothing done, i have been here for 5 and a half hours. caylie and i stayed up till about 3 this morning then woke up at 8 (for church at 9). i am exhausted.

haha no complaints though right??

things could be SOOOOO much worse.

and i will be in issaquah for most of the week (taking care of my dadddy and my sissterr) while my mother is out of town!!


i love you ALL regardless of my not-so-perky mood right now.


love & kisses! <3

i love life.

ahh i just finished sooo much hw!! i still have a couple assignments to do before the weekend starts but i feel freeee!!

updates::

i had the most wonderful weekend!!! emily and missy came to visit and stayed at my place. we basically spent the entire weekend visiting people and kickking it with some beeezys. haha ky, missy, em and i went shopping on friday and hit up nordstrom and aritzia.. i hadn't been shopping in a very long time, but i was tame.. haha (: then we went and got pho. it was quite an experience.. haha i was a little more skilled with the chopsticks than missy and ky.. and em just had 2 egg rolls lol. friday night we hung out with david and some other boys. saturday aka VDAY we visited isssy, went and saw my parentals (my mother got us valentines hahahha) and went to starbucks with annie and ky, then took our little outing to red robin! afterwards we went home and got ready for the night then went out and hung out with our boys!! sunday was way more low key, we went to see my daddy speak in church, then visited my g-parents/ the sanelli fam, then went home made a kick-butt dinner (i cooked my brother's ammaaazing mushroom alfredo), then the boys came over and emy made us cookies!! yummm

soo that was clearly not the best description i could have given, but i am sure that you got the point. it was an AMAZING weekend. and i miss my girls more and more now!! ahhh.

and we were talking about weddings.. (random i know).. and i realized that i am going to have like 15 bridesmaids. ahahha basically, i need to stop accumulating close girl friends because by the time i am 25 i am going to have 25 bridesmaids. BLEH

anddd i haven't written a song in quite some time soo i think i am breaking the dry spell tonight!


anyway. i love life. and i am excited for this weekend <3

love & kisses.

(sorry this post makes me look extremely illiterate)

sooo many things to be thankful for!

basically. i have been thinking a lot lately. and i truly have it made. i mean obviously there are days (although i cannot remember the last one) when i am totally in a rut, but when i see all this trouble around the world i am forced to stop and realize that there are people who have it soo much worse. its actually really sad to think about how bad some people really have it. i wish i wasn't a poor college student so that i could actually do something to help these people out! at this point, its nearly impossible, but i am hoping in the future (with a lot of help) we can make the world a better place (: hahah i sound like i am competing in a pageant but i really really mean it!!!

i just feel so dumb every time i complain, when i really have nothing to complain about! its always the petty things you know? classes, weather, dumb boys etc. but really- everything happens for a reason, and even if things seem bad at the time of their occurrence, they usually are for the better in the end!

famous words of john lennon <3 --

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one


if i could i would give everyone a little piece of my happiness! i hate how much sadness there is in the world.


love & kisses <3

hey baby hey baby heyy

so today i basically took nothing out of lecture. i was trying soo hard to stay awake the entire time that i couldn't even take notes!! hahha oh man. and i have a ton of h-dub to do tomorrow and i am not excited about it. hopefully i can get most of it done while colin is napping!

i am having such a hard time budgeting myself. there are so many things that i "need" right now so i keep thinking i can get them (not that i have been getting them, because i haven't). and i haven't purchased clothes (besides my over priced yoga pants) in SOO long i am having some major withdrawals. i was looking at some of my favorite stores the other day and i saw the cutest shoes, and the cutest dresses. ughh so hard !! i need to perfect my sewing skills so that the money isn't the issue! i miss the good old days when i didn't have to pay for clothes.. oh high school..

emily & missy are coming this weekend!!! i am BEYOND excited. i haven't seen emily since september and i have not seen missy since may! i am seriously stoked to see them it will be such an amazing weekend!

i am pretty much loving life right now! even though it is beeeyoondd crazy. i don't think i have been this happy since, well, high school.. hahahahah its fantastic!

last but not leeeast, i finally finished breaking dawn!! took me forever i know (hard to read non-stop with school and work) but it was SOO good, by far my favorite of the 4 books.


<3 night night

love & kisses

i love sundays. (:

i really do love sundays. especially because now my body has semi-adjusted to waking up early (from waking up at 7 every morning, 8:15 feels like a breeze). i love going to church, i love the peaceful feeling you get there, it is such a nice beginning to a long week. i also love coming home, turning on a movie with kelsey & taking a really long nap haha. today our nap lasted for about 2 and a half hours, which is long for me! and now i feel extremely well rested (i got 8 hours of sleep each night this weekend wooo hooo!!). i also feel like taking these iron pills everyday has really improved my anemia symptoms! i can sleep now, and i am still semi-tired during the day but i think its improving!! caylie's mom gave me these valerian root pills that help you sleep at night (they are just an herbal supplement) and they work like a dream! thanks margie! (:

tonight (in about a half hour) i am going to go practice with the band for the v-day party on wednesday! i am singing if i ain't got you (alicia keys), at last (etta james), killing me softly (lauryn hill), and bleeding love (leona lewis). they are all pretty difficult to sing sooo we will see how this goes! but i am super excited because i don't get to sing as often as i like. i'm not that roommate that sings constantly (really loud), as much as i want to be sometimes. i get really annoyed when people do that soo i figure i won't make other people suffer. i also never sing when someone asks me to (on the spot), i am way too shy for that kind of thing. i won't even do it for my best friends hahaha. the one thing i will always do is sing in the car. turn that baby up and i will start singing my heart out!

OH ALSO- i invested in a pair of lululemon yoga pants yesterday, did not realize they were so expensive. bleh. but i needed a pair of comfy pants to wear to work and thought it would be nice to have pants to wear to the gym (i hate wearing shorts there). sooo they filled my description fairly well! i had to feel justified though so i looked around and no where else had the same quality that they did and their's are actually long enough for my legs (sometimes i truly hate having long legs) so i am happy (:


and please keep my grandfather in your prayers! my grandpa on my dad's side collapsed over the weekend after he had attended his sister's funeral :-( we are all SOOO worried about him. i fasted for him today and i hope that he gets better because i was freaking out all friday when i got my father's message!

love yooou all.

love & kisses <3

work/play! (:

okay so i am working right now but i really don't feel like i am working. it's weird actually enjoying my job! i enjoyed hollister simply because it was not really work, i basically hung out with my friends while i cleaned up the store and helped customers! and Nordstrom was fun too because it was competitive, and even though i wasn't getting commission i still had that drive to sell the most product. i learned so much about handbags from them hahaha. and coming from someone who doesn't spend a ton of money on accessories, i have never been more tempted to buy a thousand dollar purse than i was then. now of course i am not tempted to buy anything because i simply have no money to spend (very unfortunate). but that will soon change (: .

i hated working at the bank. not because of the people, not really even because of the job. the pay was excellent, i am always shocked to see anything about 500 on a paycheck (minimum wage does that to you). but i was so stressed out from working so much, and getting behind in my classes, that my stomach ulcers started coming back and that made things extremely difficult. i chose to leave for health reasons and i think that was a really good decision on my part! i don't think a bank job is my forte. i do well in retail and apparently in nanny positions.

right now Colin is asleep (he sleeps for 2 1/2 hours ishhh..) soo i pretty much am doing homework and ate my lunch and blah blah blah. but when he is awake we play in his play room! he is adorable. i know this is EXTREMELY far in my future (hopefully around age 25.. so five years lol) but i cannot wait to have kids!!! i am so excited! i want like 3 or 4 (i am used to having a big family) soo i have to get started young! however, it is mandatory that the father be extremely attractive. i don't want any fugliness mixing with my genes (although i am sure i will think my kids are cute no matter what). i used to only want blue eyes but now i could honestly care less! brown eyes are gorgeous too (:

hahha i have become really picky sooo hopefully one day i will actually find this dream guy! (would be nice if he happened to show up after my 25th birthday)


love & kissesss <3

oh and also.. how did i go from jobs to kids to dream guy? i apologize for all of these ramblings.

anemia :-/

okay its late i know.. but i just realized that i truly am anemic... i mean i always have been, but only mildly... and lately i haven't really been eating any meat (besides occasionally chicken) just because its easier to cook other things and i am so busy all the time (and the fact that meat is expensive!!). i just looked at the symptoms for anemia and turns out i am having the more serious symptoms (insomnia, fatigue, loss of energy, dizziness, headache, rapid heart rate, etc.)

hahah sooo yea, when i talked to my mother earlier today she was saying i should get checked, and i already knew that i was anemic bc when i gave blood a few months back i was mildly anemic, not anemic enough to not give blood though of course, and at the time i did not have any of these symptoms. anyway, turns out my mother is anemic too and she just started getting treated for it sooo i will be making a quick trip to the doc's office tomorrow (aka my second home <3 ).

ehh, wish me luck as i try to sleep... again.

love & kisses!! <3

25 random things about muaah!!

1. i try not to take my computer to class because i cannot focus when it is around ( aka right nowww).. caylie can attest to this because we both did awful in anthro last year

2. i believe in fairy tales.. i am going to have an epic love story of this i am sure.

3. disneyland is the happiest place on earth, and i go there AT LEAST once a year (have since day 1).

4. creme brule is my favorite dessert <3 chef kelsey is excellent and makes it for me often (she even has a little fire blower thing).

5. i LOVE my niece and nephew (i talk about them 24/7) and i LOVE the fact that they call me everyday just to have cute little conversations!! and i love kids just in general (as i am sure all of you know).

6. i put my whole heart into relationships (friends, family, bf, etc). i guess it just never made sense to me to only go half-way.

7. i have always wanted to make a difference and help people in every way i can.

8. i love change, and although it can be really hard in the end it is almost always worth it.

9. i am terrrible at staying mad at people. sometimes i have to remind myself why i am mad at them (repetitively) because i so often forget.

10. i hate being used. especially when i realize it when its already too late.

11. i love my family & my friends! more than anything elsee in the world. i don't know where i would be without them. they have all been there for me when i have needed it the most.

12. i am not super sensitive, i can definitely laugh at myself and do it often.

13. my favorite colors are turquoise and red!

14. i am really shy when i first meet people (depending on the situation)

15. i love to sing and wish i were better at the guitar (one day i will be)

16. i absolutely love asian food!!! (pho, pad thai, fried rice, etc) <3

17. sunshine is like a drug to me. it lifts my mood no matter what the situation.

18. i always try to look on the bright side of every situation.

19. i hate seeing people i love go down-hill if you know what i mean.

20. i wish i could make absolutely everyone happy, and i do what i can to try.

21. i love clothes, buying them, wearing them, helping people find something to wear.. etc. i can't wait till my sister gets her clothing line started so i can get some chic designer wear for freeee <3

22. i have always wanted to start a charity and i am finally going to <3

23. i vacation more often than i should. i lovee hot places or anyywhere in europe <3

24. i love life!! i love the ups and downs even though they suck sometimes, everything happens for a reason!!

25. i am boy crazy. always have been always will be. (:

first day at work!!

today i had my first day at work (: it was soo much fun! basically what i do is play with the little 14 month old boy, his name is Colin. he is so precious and has the biggest brown eyes and the most adorable dimples. when Colin goes down for a nap i hold the newborn (2 week old) whose name is Zach. he is soo cute and soo small, he is a beautiful baby. the couple i am nanny-ing for are really laid-back and nice. i really wish i could be of more help though! whenever i have down time (Colin is asleep, Zach is either asleep or getting fed) i wish she would let me clean up or do something helpful! they are paying me really well and i want to be able to make this as easy for the mother as possible!

anyway, this is by far the most perfect job that i could have stumbled upon. i couldn't be more grateful for it.

i am gonna try to call it an early night again even though i have a day off tomorrow!

love & kisses <3

my niece skis better than me... and she is 3 1/2

i am still polishing my skills in the skiing department, and i fear that my little 3 and a half year old niece may pass me up before i know it! 

She just started skiing this winter and was already going up the chair-lifts and everything before she was done! i don't know about you but i get really jealous when i see those little toddlers passing me down the slopes with better technique and just overall skill. hahaha i was clearly never meant to ski but i figure i will get better if i keep at it. 

i am writing down a list of my goals for the year and just things i want to accomplish in my life today. i might have to put them on here so i will have better motivation to actually finish them. 

anddd of course. it is superbowl sunday. in church everyone was all about the cardinals winning.. i almost felt like i should stick up for the steelers, but apparently the cardinals are the underdog so more power to them. but honestly, as much as i honestly do love football.. i haven't kept up at alll so it really holds no special meaning.. there are farr too many other things to worry about all the time.

last thing.. my first day of work is tomorrow!!! i am a mix between nervous and excited.. nervous because i am hoping that my body will allow me to call it an early night (so i can wake up early of course) and excited because i get to play with a really cute 1 year old and hold a darling newborn all day!! i am so lucky this job fell into my lap! i seriously have so many things to be grateful for it is ridiculous.

here is a video of my ADORABLE niece and nephew!! i love them so so much!! <3