i NEEDED a vacation. even after taking one 2 weeks ago hahahaha. call me a baby, but trust me if you hear what i have on my plate you would TOTALLY understand.
okay so lately my life has been a living hell. i have actually been very happy now that i am thinking about it, but i have been SOO stressed out. a couple of days ago i had two panic attacks within a couple hours of each other and i was freaking out (the first was in the car on the freeway, the next was during lecture). My Mother says i need to talk myself through it so that i learn to not have them anymore.. she says exercise will help too (i am just starting up again- bathing suit season hahahah). i am HOPING this helps, i think the best solution would be to get everything situated and organized. i have become a complete neat freak. whenever i clean i cannot just straighten, i have to DEEP clean everything!! which is very inconvenient considering i have little time to do so.
in a matter to publicly humiliate myself, which is ultimately impossible because i find that it takes a LOT to truly humiliate me.. i am going to write down all of the tasks i need to complete on this post- so that everyone can hold me to them (: i am in AZ right now so most of this will be completed pool side...
1. finish online course.
2. finish readings for all 3 classes.
3. figure out how i am going to save up to pay back parents for first 2 months of rent.
4. finish assignments due in each class.
5. write essay for the COM department.
6. resolve problem w/ USU registrar (i was accidently enrolled in a course @ USU this semester- KILL ME)
7. RELAX/ ENJOY MYSELF (this will be hard considering i need to resolve the above 6 tasks prior to doing this)
i GUESS you could call this a vacation.. i mean our condo is brand new and gorgeous! so no complaints <3
love & kisses
Monday, April 6, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
such is life
i am so grateful for everything that i have. even for all of the mistakes i have made or the bad things that have happened to me. i feel like everything has made me more wise, less naive. i was just thinking about a few of my friends and it just breaks my heart to see such awful things happen to such amazing people. as much as i know that they can come out of those situations so much stronger, i just hate to see them struggle.
truth be told: nice guys AND nice girls finish last.. but i am sure the long wait will be well worth it.
best statement ever: (reinforced by my father in a book he gave me last year): "not every guy is like the one who hurt you" i want ALL of my friends to remember that!! just because some idiot broke your heart does not mean that the rest are spoiled, and even though it will be harder to give your heart away again, don't be afraid, just be more careful!! without heartbreaks, how could we ever recognize true love (:
LOVE YOU ALLLLL
love & kisses <3
truth be told: nice guys AND nice girls finish last.. but i am sure the long wait will be well worth it.
best statement ever: (reinforced by my father in a book he gave me last year): "not every guy is like the one who hurt you" i want ALL of my friends to remember that!! just because some idiot broke your heart does not mean that the rest are spoiled, and even though it will be harder to give your heart away again, don't be afraid, just be more careful!! without heartbreaks, how could we ever recognize true love (:
LOVE YOU ALLLLL
love & kisses <3
Saturday, March 28, 2009
SPRING BREAK!
okay soo this month has been PSYCHOTIC. which can basically explain why my last post was well, forever ago to say the least. anyway i have been sooo busy with job/school/friends/family i can't seem to balance anything! but i did have a wonderful spring break... even though i had to do bits and pieces of my online class (NEVER TAKING ONE EVER AGAIN) while i was there.
soo kelsey invited me to go to cali with her and a few of her guy friends! i was planning on just working over break but a vacation was sounding better and better.. so i agreed of course and last friday we drove the 14 hours to a cute little town called windsor (her fam owns a timeshare over there). i hardly ever go to northern california, so i was pretty stoked. when i do go to nor-cal, its to visit some fam on my dad's side, we had a few weddings in monterey (near san jose), and my dad used to always go to the santa cruz boardwalk when he was a kid so we went there a few times too! on our first day of adventuring we went to santa cruz to go to the boardwalk, the weather was excellent, although slightly windy. I ended up having to buy a sweatshirt but its cute so i don't mind. the rides were a ton of fun (not as good as d-land, but lets be honest- what is as good as d-land?!?!) we ended up going on the log ride about 5 times, and switched formations each time (front-back), no matter WHERE i sat, i always ended up getting waaay more soaked than anyone. hahahha after the boardwalk we went and got ice cream at this cute AMAZINGLY GOOD ice cream parlor called mariannes. i am in love, and would probably be about 50 pounds heavier if i lived near there.
time for a new paragraph! okay, so the next day we went to the jelly-bean factory! woo woo! it was really cute, and smelled really good, and made me REALLY hungry... in short, i loved it, even if i am not a huge jelly bean fan! the next day was my favorritee, we went to san francisco, and now i reaaallly wanna live there. i went and saw my cousin and his wifey and their kids while i was there and it was so much fun!! we explored downtown and me and kels saw some amazingly attractive men. <3 <3 such a good time! the next couple days were beach days/ exploring downtown windsor days. it was a really fun time. i am very happy that i went and that kelsey invited me! thanks kels<3
any whoo- i am getting close to finishing the online class, and hope/NEED to be done before i leave for AZ this friday (apparently we bought a condo there a year ago... ??). its gonna be tough vacationing the second week of school, but i need to go some place warm and relax for a bit. i have had waay too much on my plate lately.
as for guys- lets be real. do i REALLY have time for guys? i actually feel kind of bad/anti-social.. i mean of course i hang out with my guy friends all the time.. but whenever a guy asks me out on a date i am immediately turned off/ creeped out.. i think its because i already know what i want.. haha and he wont be home for well, a while. besides i am WAY more picky now. i have to weed out the bad ones and it seems that there are SOO many of them! my dad once told me (in a book he gave me last year) that not all boys are like the ones that hurt me.. i guess i should take that advice and give some of them a try.. we'll see. hahah
i will post some pictures soon <3
love & kisses <3
soo kelsey invited me to go to cali with her and a few of her guy friends! i was planning on just working over break but a vacation was sounding better and better.. so i agreed of course and last friday we drove the 14 hours to a cute little town called windsor (her fam owns a timeshare over there). i hardly ever go to northern california, so i was pretty stoked. when i do go to nor-cal, its to visit some fam on my dad's side, we had a few weddings in monterey (near san jose), and my dad used to always go to the santa cruz boardwalk when he was a kid so we went there a few times too! on our first day of adventuring we went to santa cruz to go to the boardwalk, the weather was excellent, although slightly windy. I ended up having to buy a sweatshirt but its cute so i don't mind. the rides were a ton of fun (not as good as d-land, but lets be honest- what is as good as d-land?!?!) we ended up going on the log ride about 5 times, and switched formations each time (front-back), no matter WHERE i sat, i always ended up getting waaay more soaked than anyone. hahahha after the boardwalk we went and got ice cream at this cute AMAZINGLY GOOD ice cream parlor called mariannes. i am in love, and would probably be about 50 pounds heavier if i lived near there.
time for a new paragraph! okay, so the next day we went to the jelly-bean factory! woo woo! it was really cute, and smelled really good, and made me REALLY hungry... in short, i loved it, even if i am not a huge jelly bean fan! the next day was my favorritee, we went to san francisco, and now i reaaallly wanna live there. i went and saw my cousin and his wifey and their kids while i was there and it was so much fun!! we explored downtown and me and kels saw some amazingly attractive men. <3 <3 such a good time! the next couple days were beach days/ exploring downtown windsor days. it was a really fun time. i am very happy that i went and that kelsey invited me! thanks kels<3
any whoo- i am getting close to finishing the online class, and hope/NEED to be done before i leave for AZ this friday (apparently we bought a condo there a year ago... ??). its gonna be tough vacationing the second week of school, but i need to go some place warm and relax for a bit. i have had waay too much on my plate lately.
as for guys- lets be real. do i REALLY have time for guys? i actually feel kind of bad/anti-social.. i mean of course i hang out with my guy friends all the time.. but whenever a guy asks me out on a date i am immediately turned off/ creeped out.. i think its because i already know what i want.. haha and he wont be home for well, a while. besides i am WAY more picky now. i have to weed out the bad ones and it seems that there are SOO many of them! my dad once told me (in a book he gave me last year) that not all boys are like the ones that hurt me.. i guess i should take that advice and give some of them a try.. we'll see. hahah
i will post some pictures soon <3
love & kisses <3
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
busy busy weekend/week
this past week has been fairly psychotic. hahah well i have been going from home to seattle and back almost everyday because my mother is in Maryland watching the kiddies. I told her while she was gone I would come home and help out. I don't think I have been a ton of help though hahah. Not to mention finals are just around the corner! I have a research paper due, a final project due, and little nonsense papers on top of that. not to mention my communication assignments. basically i just looked over everything i have to have done by next week... and i am thinking that this weekend will be spent mostly indoors. so sad, but so true.
last weekend however, was eventful. it was ju's last weekend in town :-( so friday, while there were a ton of people at my house, i snuck out to go to his going away party at josh's place. that was fun, i ended up being there extremely late.. which ultimately resulted in the deterioration of my health. i woke up saturday, with absolutely NO voice, my body aching and my head throbbing. saturday was difficult too, ju had his more formal going away party at his house in issaquah, and then i went to tiffer's 21 bash in bellevue. i couldn't talk to anyone, because the vocal cords were not really working at the time.. sunday, although i felt like crap, i went to church because i knew i'd be sad if i didn't! i lasted the entire three hours, and then went to my grandma's afterwards for dinner. i was fine all throughout then too.. but as soon as i got home i died. i had the worst headache and a terrible fever.. it was awful.. so i let my boss know that i wouldn't be at work the next day and i went to sleep with a cold press on my head. monday i woke up still feeling yucky.. but then i ate an entire box of samoa girl scout cookies and i was miraculously all better! hahahhahaha.. actually i don't think it was the samoas... but true story!!
anyway i should really focus. i hate being a procrastinator. one day i will change, i promise.
LOVE AND KISSES <3
last weekend however, was eventful. it was ju's last weekend in town :-( so friday, while there were a ton of people at my house, i snuck out to go to his going away party at josh's place. that was fun, i ended up being there extremely late.. which ultimately resulted in the deterioration of my health. i woke up saturday, with absolutely NO voice, my body aching and my head throbbing. saturday was difficult too, ju had his more formal going away party at his house in issaquah, and then i went to tiffer's 21 bash in bellevue. i couldn't talk to anyone, because the vocal cords were not really working at the time.. sunday, although i felt like crap, i went to church because i knew i'd be sad if i didn't! i lasted the entire three hours, and then went to my grandma's afterwards for dinner. i was fine all throughout then too.. but as soon as i got home i died. i had the worst headache and a terrible fever.. it was awful.. so i let my boss know that i wouldn't be at work the next day and i went to sleep with a cold press on my head. monday i woke up still feeling yucky.. but then i ate an entire box of samoa girl scout cookies and i was miraculously all better! hahahhahaha.. actually i don't think it was the samoas... but true story!!
anyway i should really focus. i hate being a procrastinator. one day i will change, i promise.
LOVE AND KISSES <3
Sunday, February 22, 2009
allergies.
well spring definitely decided to come early this year, because as of like friday i started getting my allergies again! i was hoping for another good 2 months before this !! hahah it won't be too bad once i pick up the meds though.
until then, i am at the library getting nothing done, i have been here for 5 and a half hours. caylie and i stayed up till about 3 this morning then woke up at 8 (for church at 9). i am exhausted.
haha no complaints though right??
things could be SOOOOO much worse.
and i will be in issaquah for most of the week (taking care of my dadddy and my sissterr) while my mother is out of town!!
i love you ALL regardless of my not-so-perky mood right now.
love & kisses! <3
until then, i am at the library getting nothing done, i have been here for 5 and a half hours. caylie and i stayed up till about 3 this morning then woke up at 8 (for church at 9). i am exhausted.
haha no complaints though right??
things could be SOOOOO much worse.
and i will be in issaquah for most of the week (taking care of my dadddy and my sissterr) while my mother is out of town!!
i love you ALL regardless of my not-so-perky mood right now.
love & kisses! <3
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
i love life.
ahh i just finished sooo much hw!! i still have a couple assignments to do before the weekend starts but i feel freeee!!
updates::
i had the most wonderful weekend!!! emily and missy came to visit and stayed at my place. we basically spent the entire weekend visiting people and kickking it with some beeezys. haha ky, missy, em and i went shopping on friday and hit up nordstrom and aritzia.. i hadn't been shopping in a very long time, but i was tame.. haha (: then we went and got pho. it was quite an experience.. haha i was a little more skilled with the chopsticks than missy and ky.. and em just had 2 egg rolls lol. friday night we hung out with david and some other boys. saturday aka VDAY we visited isssy, went and saw my parentals (my mother got us valentines hahahha) and went to starbucks with annie and ky, then took our little outing to red robin! afterwards we went home and got ready for the night then went out and hung out with our boys!! sunday was way more low key, we went to see my daddy speak in church, then visited my g-parents/ the sanelli fam, then went home made a kick-butt dinner (i cooked my brother's ammaaazing mushroom alfredo), then the boys came over and emy made us cookies!! yummm
soo that was clearly not the best description i could have given, but i am sure that you got the point. it was an AMAZING weekend. and i miss my girls more and more now!! ahhh.
and we were talking about weddings.. (random i know).. and i realized that i am going to have like 15 bridesmaids. ahahha basically, i need to stop accumulating close girl friends because by the time i am 25 i am going to have 25 bridesmaids. BLEH
anddd i haven't written a song in quite some time soo i think i am breaking the dry spell tonight!
anyway. i love life. and i am excited for this weekend <3
love & kisses.
(sorry this post makes me look extremely illiterate)
updates::
i had the most wonderful weekend!!! emily and missy came to visit and stayed at my place. we basically spent the entire weekend visiting people and kickking it with some beeezys. haha ky, missy, em and i went shopping on friday and hit up nordstrom and aritzia.. i hadn't been shopping in a very long time, but i was tame.. haha (: then we went and got pho. it was quite an experience.. haha i was a little more skilled with the chopsticks than missy and ky.. and em just had 2 egg rolls lol. friday night we hung out with david and some other boys. saturday aka VDAY we visited isssy, went and saw my parentals (my mother got us valentines hahahha) and went to starbucks with annie and ky, then took our little outing to red robin! afterwards we went home and got ready for the night then went out and hung out with our boys!! sunday was way more low key, we went to see my daddy speak in church, then visited my g-parents/ the sanelli fam, then went home made a kick-butt dinner (i cooked my brother's ammaaazing mushroom alfredo), then the boys came over and emy made us cookies!! yummm
soo that was clearly not the best description i could have given, but i am sure that you got the point. it was an AMAZING weekend. and i miss my girls more and more now!! ahhh.
and we were talking about weddings.. (random i know).. and i realized that i am going to have like 15 bridesmaids. ahahha basically, i need to stop accumulating close girl friends because by the time i am 25 i am going to have 25 bridesmaids. BLEH
anddd i haven't written a song in quite some time soo i think i am breaking the dry spell tonight!
anyway. i love life. and i am excited for this weekend <3
love & kisses.
(sorry this post makes me look extremely illiterate)
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
sooo many things to be thankful for!
basically. i have been thinking a lot lately. and i truly have it made. i mean obviously there are days (although i cannot remember the last one) when i am totally in a rut, but when i see all this trouble around the world i am forced to stop and realize that there are people who have it soo much worse. its actually really sad to think about how bad some people really have it. i wish i wasn't a poor college student so that i could actually do something to help these people out! at this point, its nearly impossible, but i am hoping in the future (with a lot of help) we can make the world a better place (: hahah i sound like i am competing in a pageant but i really really mean it!!!
i just feel so dumb every time i complain, when i really have nothing to complain about! its always the petty things you know? classes, weather, dumb boys etc. but really- everything happens for a reason, and even if things seem bad at the time of their occurrence, they usually are for the better in the end!
famous words of john lennon <3 --
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
if i could i would give everyone a little piece of my happiness! i hate how much sadness there is in the world.
love & kisses <3
i just feel so dumb every time i complain, when i really have nothing to complain about! its always the petty things you know? classes, weather, dumb boys etc. but really- everything happens for a reason, and even if things seem bad at the time of their occurrence, they usually are for the better in the end!
famous words of john lennon <3 --
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
if i could i would give everyone a little piece of my happiness! i hate how much sadness there is in the world.
love & kisses <3
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